Make-over & A New Poem

So actually I didn't go and delete my other blog but I don't know how much I'll be posting on there anymore. Or if I change my mind and actually do delete it. Oh and I finally wrote a new poem. It was a good way to get out what I was feeling. I haven't been really able to understand God's hand in all of it. It still doesn't make sense to me and it's still really hard to deal with since the knowledge is so fresh in my mind. Anyways more later and here it is! (The poem that is)

I have some anger,
So much pain bottled up,
Should I release it?
Or save it for something else?

Why do we have to suffer?
Why is this world messed up?
Why am I the one to deal with this?
The one that wants to give up.

I want to punch a wall,
Or scream at the top of my lungs.
I want to let go of this hurt,
But it's my thriving drug.

Drug that numbs my bitterness,
Am I cynical?
Maybe I am,
I want to jump off the edge,
Just to feel alive again.

Thought my blog needed an long overdue makeover! :)
more to come latah gatah!

-Peace, Love & Baby Ducks :)